Ok .. that’s it. I have to do something. I am really an unhealthy weight for my height AND it is way too close to Eddie’s weight. I just  need motivation toward someone else, I think .. last year I lost 15 pounds because  I knew I had to go back and see the doctor, and I didn’t want to disappoint .. so that helped me stay on track. I just need to know that someone will be looking at what and how much I eat every day .. then I won’t want to eat as much and stuff. So, I am starting to day. Counting calories again and not eating fast food with Eddie .. as much as I can help it .. anyway ..

1.5 cups cantaloupe … 90 – yay! good start .. let’s see how I keep it up. Oh I know. I’ll plan what I’m going to eat later so that I don’t resort to something easier when I get hungry.

Half a pear … 40

Half a bagel with cream cheese … 220

*mumbles* Doughnut … 320! ahh!!

Portabello shroomie …20ish

1 Ear of corn … 80

Half green bell pepper … 15? doh

1/4 squash … 40ish

1/4 zucchini … 40ish

Taking into account oil on everything we grilled … maybeeeee 150?

Total:1045 + 100misc. just in case = 1145 YAY .. why do I feel so blechy even though I had a good amount of calories? =(